Moving
from Bitterness to Brokenness & the Power of God in Your Life
“He will either become
bitter or broken,” were the words I heard in my heart as I prayed for my
brother-in-law, John, who was feeling very discouraged in life. He had been unable
to find employment for two years and had just filed for bankruptcy. I
immediately knew what the Holy Spirit meant. John had a choice in how he would
respond to this devastating ordeal. If he responded with anger, self-pity, and
blaming God, his heart would become bitter and hardened, and God would not be
able to use him. On the other hand, if he would fall on his face and say, “God
I do not understand why this has happened to me, but I know You are good and I
am putting myself in your hands and trusting You through it all,” pride and
unhealthy self-reliance would be broken and he would become a vessel through
whom God could flow. This is what Jesus called falling on the stone.
Jesus & Brokenness
In Matt. 21:44 Jesus
said, And whoever falls on this stone
will be broken; but on whomever it falls, it will grind him to powder. The
context of the statement reveals that that the stone he speaks of is “the chief
cornerstone,” i.e., Himself. Jesus is
saying that whoever will fall on Him—the Stone-- in utter abandonment will be
broken of all self-trust and self-reliance that is rooted in ego and pride. Through
such a broken vessel, the river of God’s Spirit will flow freely out to others
bringing hope and healing.
Biblical brokenness is
not a breaking of one’s will and spirit, but the breaking of ego, pride, and
self-reliance. One may do impressive religious works from ego, pride, and
self-reliance, but the life of God will only flow through a vessel that has
been broken of any trust in self—a vessel that has been abandoned to God in
absolute trust and reliance.
Paul Experienced Brokenness
Paul knew what it was
to be broken in this sense. In II Cor. 1:8-9 he tells of going through an
ordeal so terrible that he and his companions gave up hope of ever living
through it. Yet, in the midst of this ordeal he and his companions learned, that we should not trust in ourselves but in God who raises the dead.
They gave up any trust in themselves—they fell on the Stone--and out of their
brokenness and trust in God, His resurrection power was manifest and they were delivered
from so great a death.
In I Cor. 2:1-5, Paul
describes his ministry at Corinth in terms of his human brokenness and weakness.
He reminds the Corinthians that when he first came to them it was, in weakness, in fear, and in much trembling.
The word “trembling” in this passage is a translation of the Greek word tromo from which we get “trauma” and “traumatic.”
Thayer’s Greek-English Lexicon
defines this word as “a trembling, quaking with fear in one who distrusts
his/her ability completely.” Paul did not arrive in Corinth full of
self-confidence and announcing that God’s great apostle had arrived to take
over the city. He arrived in the city a broken man, having been stoned and left
for dead in Lystra, beaten and imprisoned in Philippi, and attacked by a mob in
Thessalonica. But instead of responding to his difficulties with anger and
bitterness, he fell on the Stone in utter abandonment of faith and, through his
brokenness, God worked mightily to establish a beachhead for Christianity in
that wicked, pagan city of Corinth. It was out of these deep broken experiences
that Paul would declare, Not that we are
sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being of ourselves, but our
sufficiency is of God (II Cor. 3:5).
Brokenness in My Own Life
I recall one of the
most devastating times of my life during the early days of our marriage and
ministry. Through a series of circumstances, over which it seemed we had no
control, Sue and I lost everything, including a place to live and a place to
have our “church” meetings. Our already small congregation dwindled to a
handful. At the same time, my brother in Oklahoma was killed in an accident and
I had to leave Canada to be in OK/TX for several days. Everyone was discouraged
and no one had the motivation to continue church meetings while I was gone.
Chris, my mother-in-law, said, “That was when it all died.” It was a
devastating time but I fell on the Stone in utter abandonment of faith and I
heard one of the most amazing words I ever heard, “Don’t be afraid of death,
because I am the resurrection.” With pride and self-reliance broken, we stepped
out in a faith purified in the fire of adversity, and God came forth in power
and brought forth a work far more wonderful than what we had been previously
attempting to do in our own human flesh.
The Original Sin was Human
Self-Reliance
The sin of the fall was
one of human sufficiency apart from God. Our first human parents were not
atheists—they did not deny the existence of God. Their sin was that they
declared their independence from God and set out to build a world—a social and
ethical system—in their own wisdom and ingenuity apart from God. This sort of
self-reliance, based in human-centered ego and pride, has become innate in
fallen humanity. This is the original sin. It is what keeps non-believers from
God and believers from fully experiencing His power in their lives.
America was Settled by Broken Believers
I often hear
conservative pundits speak of America being founded on “self-reliance.” This is
not true. America was founded on a God-reliance, as is clearly documented in my
book, America’s Revival Heritage. I
understand that these pundits are making the point that the people who
established America were not dependent on government, which is true. But that
is only part of the truth. Having been beaten down and persecuted by both the
civil government and the state church, they had given up all trust in their own
human strength and came to this land with a faith abandoned to God. Not until
the churches in America move away from a human-centered self-reliance and fall
on the Stone in an utter abandonment of faith will we see a true spiritual
awakening in America.
From Self-Centered to
Christ-Centered Confidence
Yes, God wants us to
have confidence, but it is a Christ-centered confidence, not a self or ego
centered confidence. In Phil. 4:13 Paul makes that familiar statement we so
often quote, I can do all things through
Christ who strengthens (empowers) me. Paul can do all things, but it is not
through Paul, it is through Christ in whom he had learned to completely trust.
If today you are going
through a difficult or devastating time. Do not respond in bitterness. Let go
of all self-trust or self-reliance. Fall on the Stone in an utter abandonment
of faith. You will see God come forth on your behalf in ways you would never
have imagined.
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